Have you ever felt like you’re behind in life? In this week’s vlog, I reflect on starting over in my thirties, pursuing a creative dream, and learning that a meaningful life isn’t always the same thing as an externally successful one.
What is one change you would like to make, big or small?
What do you need to let go of in order to make said change?
And what are you calling in? Who do you want to become?
On March 9th of 2026, I finished the first draft of the V: The Solar Queen—the sequel to IV: Aurora and Luna, the first instalment in The Sun and Moon Saga (which will be rereleased on May 1st, 2026!). And of course, I vlogged my finishing the first draft…
In the vlog, I talk about both the process of drafting V: The Solar Queen, and the plan for revising, editing, and finishing it—because, while yes, the first draft is now complete, there is still much work to be done!
The manuscript currently sits at 173,941 words. I started drafting around the Summer Solstice of 2025. I wrote all that in less than nine months!
Mostly I feel relieved to have the first draft scribbled down. I tend to do my best work during the developmental edit, so I like to sort of vomit out my first draft, but take my time with the editing. Actually, I wish I had drafted the book even faster… This is my sixth manuscript, and through all of these projects, I have learned my process: draft quickly, and then do a very thorough edit.
Going forward, the challenge will be doing that very thorough edit, without getting stuck in ‘perfectionism’ the way I did with IV: Aurora and Luna. (I put ‘perfectionism’ in quotations, because it really is procrastination in disguise!) To be blunt about it: while I don’t regret spending a decade on IV: Aurora and Luna, I don’t want V: The Solar Queento take that long. It can’t take that long. I need to push myself to, yes, realise the book’s potential—but also, I need to push myself to realise my own potential—and to do that, I must finish and publish more books! It will be a tricky balance to strike, but I am up for the challenge.
Now that the manuscript is drafted and this vlog is up, I am going to take a well-earned week off of all things creative. I love creating, but rest is vital. Both as an artist and as a human being. I will spend the next week reading, gaming, and eating carrot cake. (A very merry Ostara to all my fellow pagans!)
It feels good to reemerge from Winter with a 173k manuscript in my hands.
P.S.: I caved and bought Final Cut. (Can you tell by the fancy new effects?!) I love YouTube and will be continuing to pursue it, both as a platform for marketing my work and as a creative outlet in and of itself. I have lots of videos planned for this Spring, so be sure you’re subscribed!
Happy Yuletide! In this vlog, I reflect on what is more important in life: success or happiness? The answer, of course, seems very obvious when you phrase the question like that. But when you’re actually in the thick of things, making decisions both large and small, it isn’t always clear what the next right choice is.
This video feels a little heavy, but I want to show you all of the moods in which I create: the super inspired, borderline manic moods; the slow, calm, cozy moods; and the melancholy moods too.
Something I am happy about is this: two days ago, V: The Solar Queen reached 100,036 words. I achieved my goal! I hit 100k before Yule! Hooray!
This week, I am tying up the loose ends of other projects (such as this vlog). Then I will take next week off of creating entirely. I do this once per season, to refill the well. I see myself reading, playing video games, and sipping warm drinks.
After my rest, I will return to V: The Solar Queen, hopefully with ample amounts of energy and inspiration!